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| Emi - 14 years old |
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It's like something has just been cut out of me i don't feel whole anymore. I wish i could but obviously i just can't. I want my daddy back.
January 2006:
I remember coming home from a schools trip happy and found my mam was crying and she asked me if I wanted to know what was going on. I was only about 13. I said no. Now I wished I had known from the start because I remember a while later my mam was crying again and when I asked her what was wrong this time she said your dad has to get more chemotherapy.
Most girls my age don't really know what this is. I knew because my mam worked with cancer. I automatically went to my friends. They helped to cheer me up but I wouldn't. Then I got better and everything was alright but I still had my dad in the back of my mind. I hated this. A couple of months ago my mam told me that the chemotherapy wasn't working. This made me upset and I once again would not cheer up.
However just last week I was told that my dad now had no cure. It breaks my heart to think about it. I cried tons and I have a great time with my mates still but I do get a bit upset. My dad was a fun loving man. He was great and always kept me laughing. However now he cannot play games with me like even board games. He is too tired and my mam is constantly upset. It hurts me to think of my mam so sad. I just wish everything was back to the way it was.
My mam has now been really bad. She say I don't care but what she doesn’t understand is that of course I care but I just don't want to talk about it. She also does not get how I feel. I'm a teenage girl I need sometime with my friends and I know I am part of this family but it saddens me to say inside. I snap at her for the slightest things like I was reading a story on this website and she scrolled up and I wasn’t finished. I know it was a mean thing to do and I just don't want to talk to my mam about them kind of things.
This kind of story seems more of a diary entry but I think that there is more people out there who feel this way. It is always nice to know that you are not alone. I am going to start talking to my mam more but if she gets upset I don't think I can take it. I hope other people understand. That I love my dad so much and I don't want him to die. I love my mom but I wish she wouldn't nag me so much. I love my parents and I don't ever want them to die. Especially my dad because he was there for me no matter what.
The story above was sent us by Emi in January 2006. She then sent us her sad update below at the beginning of September 2006.
Emi continues her story:
I already submitted a story but since things have happened a new one must be entered. I used to imagine a perfect wedding and i had all my family there. My dad walking down the isle with me and there was my mam staring at me with such pride. Then i would wake up and remember now thats not possible. John Smith (not the real name) was a man who meant alot to me. He meant alot to everyone he knew. Espeicially to my mam and me and my brother because he was our dad and my mams husband. He was always laughing smiling until the cancer came. It was male cancer (enough said). I have written about in my last entry, explained how i felt up to january or so. Now its september and i had to start year 10 and my daddy wasn’t there when i got home. He hasn’t been there for nearly 3 months. He passed away in June on the 22nd. I stayed off all that week because it was obvious what was going to happen and then when it did. I was so shocked. Cancer effects so many lives and its the most horrible thing i have ever known. I can't believe that he won't be there to walk me down the isle. To see my children and to aproove my husband. It's like something has just been cut out of me i don't feel whole anymore. I wish i could but obviously i just can't. I want my daddy back. He will be watching over me and caring over me! i love you so much dad.
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