DD, Aged 17
When people would talk they didn't know what to say which was understandable. more...
Mimi - 15 years old
I lost myself doing stupid things, angry and sad and depressed at everything. I ended up failing my classes, not caring about school, and getting into fights. more...
Chelsea - 14 years old
I stuck my head round the door in the room mum was in, and she looked really ill. I couldn't understand what was happening - one minute my mum was fine and the next she was ill. more...
Clair - aged 14
Something I wish is I could just have one more day with my dad! - to tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am for all the bad things I have said and done to him! more...
Nicole - 17 years old
This time the doctors are unable to operate. He has already had 6 sessions of chemo and is having another 6 sessions. I cannot help feeling I may lose him. more...
Rirrif - 15 years old
I have been staying with my dad because my mom doesn't want me around when she is sick, which is all the time. My dad works at night so I spend a lot of time alone since I'm not with my mom. I'm afraid she is going to die and I'll blame myself for not being there more. more...
HT - 13 years old
She has been so strong about this and is keen to put it all behind her. more...
When i was 3 my parents split up, I am led to believe it was mutual, however there are doubts in my mind. Later that year my mum developed breast cancer, and went through chemo. I remember spending my time with my grandparents, but not with my dad. The chemo got rid of my mums cancer although when i was 8 she received news from her consultant that she had it again. I didn't know what to do, I remember crying all the time, she had radiotherapy and again it went. I was so relieved.
Then at 12 the cancer developed in my mums shoulder, she was distraught and so was I, my brother who is a few years older then me went to live with my dad, my mum felt so angry and upset. I do see my dad but i mainly stay with my mum. Anyway I think I was 13 when i received the news of my grandma having colon cancer, we all were very upset and went up to my grandparents every weekend, i could tell everytime we went she had deteriated a little more, I couldn't believe this was happening, my mum was good at hiding her feelings by now and I never saw her cry, but a few months later my grandma died, I was so upset and angry, a lot of my family on both sides have had cancer, and some died of it.
A year after my grandma died my mums arm lost its muscle due to scar tissue from all the radiotherapy she had and then developed arthritis in the knee, to which she had to have key hole surgery to help it. This quickly healed, although she has a scar that she's very self concious about. And everything was OK for about 6months then she was told she had cancer in the top of her spine, we were all shocked and again she had radiotherapy, now my mum has got cancer of the bone, its in her long bones, her skull, in her lungs, her spine, liver and around her ribs.
I feel so sorry for her, apparently the cancer is hormonal. The cancer in her lungs makes her gag, I don't know why but sometimes she's sick aswell. A carer comes in every morning to help her get washed and dressed, I feel I should be doing something but I don't know what to do, I feel so helpless. She knows she doesn't have long and keeps reassuring me, but i know better. I'm in my second year of GCSE's and I feel helpless, all i do is study and i feel im not there for her, I dont think she knows I love her, I snap at her and others around me quite a lot, I don't mean to but I can't help it. I cry a lot at night, I can here my mum crying sometimes too. I love her and I don't want her to leave me
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