I had come home from school January the 8th 2013, I saw my dad laying on the sofa like he was having or had a stroke, slurring his words and faint, my mom and I had to carry him upstairs to get him more comfortable in his own bed to check his progress. We were both terrified for him, when we had finally got him upstairs he started staring at his hands like a new born baby when they first notice they have hands! The confused look on his face shocked us and that's when we knew he was seriously ill, he started forgetting who we both was and then collapsed at the top of the stairs in front of my bedroom door. Me 5"7 and my mum 5"3 had to pick him up from the floor, he was 16 stone and 6"4 at the time. My mom eventually decided to call the ambulance and they said " these are the calls we wait for, it's the most serious one we have ever had!" They helped him a lot even though he tried to fight them off, the fast responder happened to know my dad very well!
At the hospital they went through all sorts of theories like meningitis, strokes or even a rare disease until they found the abnormality on his brain which happened to be a tumour, it broke my heart.
My dad had his operation in march, not long after we found out the brain tumour was cancerous, then were told he couldn't be cured, I screamed at the top of my lungs, why my dad? I mean there are people out there going through the same as me and similar who have good fathers or good mothers friends family whatever, and it chooses to take them? And not any of the people in jail or beating their own kids? It hurts and that was when I realised life is not fair, it never will be fair.
Nobody understands what me and any others go through, my friends just don't care. When I'm starting to get too stressed and irritated I punch walls to get out my anger, which is a horrible way to do it, so don't try it. I've had bandages on my hands more than once because of it. My dads still happy and healthy for the time being and were going on holiday next month, it hurts inside still though but I have people to talk to. My dads Macmillan nurse, my pets as therapy woman, social worker and my school teachers and school house managers, also family!
Page updated 20 May 2013