Arbs - 14 years old

Finding out one of my parents had cancer was my absolute worse nightmare, and it has come true.

Hi I'm Aubrey, I'm 14 years old. In October of 2014 my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. Just a year before, in 2013 he, my step mom, and two siblings moved to Texas. He had been having pain, I didn't know at the time, but had never went to the doctors.

Ironically, the summer of 2014 my dad visited me and he seemed perfectly fine. Well apparently he found blood in his stool and finally decided to go to the doctors. When I heard in October that my dad had cancer I felt very sad and guilty. Guilty because my dad was in pain this whole time and I didn't know it. Sad well because he has cancer, and when you hear cancer you think of death. Finding out one of my parents had cancer was my absolute worse nightmare, and it has came true. I cried for 30 minutes straight from school to the way home. I talked to my dad later that day but had to get off because I broke down whilst talking to him.

Now it's April of 2015 and my dad is doing horrible. His cancer is now terminal and he is on hospice care at my grandma's house. His organs are failing and he is expected to only have 2 weeks left. My dad was still strong and buff in January but when I visited him in Texas about three weeks ago, he looked bad, but not as bad as he is now.

My dad is dying and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to cope. As reality hits, it just gets worse and worse. Its hard to believe that in the next year my dad won't be with me.

If anyone is going through the same thing or something similar you are not alone and hopefully I'm not either. Thank you

Page updated 30 April 2015