DD, Aged 17
When people would talk they didn't know what to say which was understandable. more...
Mimi - 15 years old
I lost myself doing stupid things, angry and sad and depressed at everything. I ended up failing my classes, not caring about school, and getting into fights. more...
Chelsea - 14 years old
I stuck my head round the door in the room mum was in, and she looked really ill. I couldn't understand what was happening - one minute my mum was fine and the next she was ill. more...
Clair - aged 14
Something I wish is I could just have one more day with my dad! - to tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am for all the bad things I have said and done to him! more...
Nicole - 17 years old
This time the doctors are unable to operate. He has already had 6 sessions of chemo and is having another 6 sessions. I cannot help feeling I may lose him. more...
Rirrif - 15 years old
I have been staying with my dad because my mom doesn't want me around when she is sick, which is all the time. My dad works at night so I spend a lot of time alone since I'm not with my mom. I'm afraid she is going to die and I'll blame myself for not being there more. more...
HT - 13 years old
She has been so strong about this and is keen to put it all behind her. more...
In 2009 my dad was diagnosed with colon cancer. When my parents sat me and my 3 brothers down to tell us I burst into tears. My dad is the one who I tell everything to, I can talk to him about anything without him being judgemental. Whenever I wanna mess around I go to him, he's my world although him and my mum are still together it's always him I talk to.
In April of 2009 he had keyhole surgery to remove the cancer. After the surgery he had 6 sessions of chemo. After he had finished his treatment he was given the all clear and we as a family couldn't be happier. It also got rid of my worries I may lose him.
However this was all shattered as three years down the line he went for a routine scan where they found shadows on his liver which came back cancerous. My heart broke into a million pieces for a second time. This time the doctors are unable to operate. He has already had 6 sessions of chemo and is having another 6 sessions. I cannot help feeling I may lose him. I don't feel I can't talk to my mum as she is suffering enough and is trying to support my dad. It just seems to be never ending and I don't have any friends who have been through or going through what I am so feel alone and have no one to talk to. My boyfriend is understanding but I feel like its a family issue and don't like talking about it to him as it gets me upset so I try to be this happy smiley girl that's everyone knows. My 3 brothers don't talk about it either my little brother who's 15 doesn't quite understand what's going on and my older brother who's 21 is always out.
I feel so alone at times that I sit in my room and listen to music. I feel as if I'm going to lose my dad ad if that happens I won't be able to go on. He makes me proud everyday he haven't taken a day off work throughout all of this and he always has a smile in his face but I know deep down he's hurting as he has a constant reminder he's ill as he has a Hickman line in his chest.
I'm just afraid of losing my dad as I have never lost a close family member before and don't know if I will be able to cope with the pain.
Page updated 20 September 2013