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Confused - 15 years old

She laughed and lived her life and I love her so much. She was my mother role model and best friend and I miss her so much.

My mother died a month ago of lung cancer. She was diagnosed 4 yrs ago and it was stage 4 cancer, the doctors said she was going to pass away soon.

She lived longer than they expected but she really suffered towards the end - she was my role model, so brave through all the pain and she never complained even once or asked ‘why me’. She laughed and lived her life and I love her so much. She was my mother role model and best friend and I miss her so much. No one seems to understand.

Even though I knew she was going to die, in my subconscious I never really admitted it, I was in denial. Now I miss her so much because she was the only person who really understood me and I feel so guilty if I laugh or have fun. My friends were sympathetic but now everyone seems to have forgotten - I feel bad because I can't remember her clearly and I have nightmares.

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