DD, Aged 17

    When people would talk they didn't know what to say which was understandable.  more...


    Mimi - 15 years old

    I lost myself doing stupid things, angry and sad and depressed at everything. I ended up failing my classes, not caring about school, and getting into fights.  more...


    Chelsea - 14 years old

    I stuck my head round the door in the room mum was in, and she looked really ill. I couldn't understand what was happening - one minute my mum was fine and the next she was ill.  more...


    Clair - aged 14

    Something I wish is I could just have one more day with my dad! - to tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am for all the bad things I have said and done to him!  more...


    Nicole - 17 years old

    This time the doctors are unable to operate. He has already had 6 sessions of chemo and is having another 6 sessions. I cannot help feeling I may lose him.  more...


    Rirrif - 15 years old

    I have been staying with my dad because my mom doesn't want me around when she is sick, which is all the time. My dad works at night so I spend a lot of time alone since I'm not with my mom. I'm afraid she is going to die and I'll blame myself for not being there more. more...


    HT - 13 years old

    She has been so strong about this and is keen to put it all behind her.  more...

Daisy - 15 years old

My story isn't one that has ended yet and who's to say that it will.

My story isn't one that has ended yet and who's to say that it will.

My dad was ill for a month or so, he was tired all the time and not him usual self which was weird when someone is such a big, bubbly person and then their personality stops filling the room. My parents went to the doctors thinking it was depression, or something small, only to find out that he had had pancreatic cancer and that it had spread to the liver. All this time I had thought it was just them overreacting so I felt guilty for that. When they told me and my brother(who is 10) I don't think the reality of it set in- it still hasn't now and perhaps it never will but I don't think i can imagine life without my dad.

It's weird though because my family and I haven't really been getting along for the past few years but he has always been and still is someone you want to be around at his best because he's so funny and charismatic. I have always looked up to him in that sense so it's hard for me to get a grip on the fact that he may not be around for much longer; no one knows and it's that uncertainty and the fact that you are helpless that hurts the most because everyone desperately wants to help those who they love and no one wants to feel like there's nothing they can do. As sad as it is, I think I have already accepted defeat on that one so all we can do is to make the most of the time we have left but it's hard, so hard; I cant even imagine what it is like for him.

My mum is someone who I am used to seeing strong and, to be honest with you, I always thought she was cold and we have never really gotten along, but now, sometimes, I am seeing her in a different light. I know how hard it is going to be for everyone around me. He is her soulmate. So I feel that I need to be strong if not for my own sake, but for everyone elses and that is what I am going to do. Be strong.

However, it isn't all sad and miserable and you shouldn't focus on those things. Surely it's the happy things you want to document and stay with you? For example, today my mum and dad went to the hospital for a checkup and my dad came downstairs in a suit.
'Why?' I asked him.

'Because I refuse to go in looking like an ill person.' he simply said back. And it's at times like these when I know how much fight he has in him. I know it's never going to be a happily ever after because life isn't a fairytale but who's to say the time we have left can't be full of happiness? Yes, there are going to be times when it feels like my world has been turned upside down simply because it has. But there will also be times full of joy, I'm going to make sure of it. My story isn't one that has ended yet and who's to say it will.

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