Darcy-darc - from 11 years old and updates until age 15

After all that being positive I have now found out that my Dad doesn't have very long left

When I found out that my Dad had stomach cancer I thought that my world had ended. I was always told to look on the positive side of things so I did.

After all that being positive I have now found out that my Dad doesn't have very long left and he might even go tomorrow and that has made me really upset but I have all the help and support I need (at the moment)

I am going to see my Dad tonight and all I want to say is I LOVE YOU DADDY XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Update from Darcy-darc 2 days later

I am sorry to inform u that my Dad sadly passed away this afternoon as he had stopped eating and drinking but he was asleep when he passed away so he felt no pain. I wish this had never happened but at least he isn't in pain anymore. I miss him dearly and I will never forget him and at this moment onwards I know he will always look over me and our family

Thanks for listening Darcy xxxx

Update from Darcy-darc 6 months later

Hi it's me again and I thought it would be nice to tell u how I'm getting on. Well it's been a hard few months without my dad cause there little things that u try or want to do but u can't do them cause u need your DAD, the thing is my dad was my bestest friend. I have lots of different emotions and feelings at the moment, I sometimes feel guilty, I feel lonely, ANGRY and most of all confused. Now I feel confused because I think why did CANCER have to take my daddy, why does CANCER take away the good people, the people we need in life? Why not take the bad people in the world, not the good, take the people who kill people or people who steal, people like that, not the good people!

So I am an aunty to my baby niece who is 1 years old, this is cause of my big sister so I have just found out not so long ago that my sister is pregnant again and my dads not ALIVE to be here to see the baby like he was for my niece. It's been 6 months since my dad died and I'm still very upset, I feel like I will never get over it, this is the question I keep asking myself ,will I ever be happy again??

Update from Darcy-darc December 2015 - Darcy is now 12 years old

Hiya it's me again and it has been a year now since my Dad died! It was a year on 23rd November! I was very upset on that day but went in school for half a day (that was my choice). On my previous stories I have said I don't think it is ever going to get easier but it has got the tiniest bit easier! I still miss my Dad dearly and want him here. But as time goes by you learn how to control your emotions but I still get upset cause that is completely natural. Thanks Darcy xxxxx

Update from Darcy-darc in February 2016

Hello everybody its me again, its now a new year and I still get extremely upset but not as much. When I get upset its like the grief comes out of nowhere and destroys me as a person for the whole day! My personality is very bubbly and very kind I always put others before myself! I have made some lovely new friends who are really supportive and understand I can sometimes get easily upset and moody.

I still cant believe that my daddy is dead! Sometimes I'll say I better call dad and tell him this news... or can I go and see my dad tonight forgetting that he's not here anymore, I miss him every day and wish he could be here with me, my sisters, my baby niece and the newest addition to our family my baby nephew,- who unfortunately my dad never got to meet! My family seem to be coping okay which is good, we all miss my daddy dearly and we always will.

So for anybody out there who has lost a loved one or who's loved one is battling an illness you’re not the only ones out there, don't worry and stay strong cause our loved ones would want us to be happy xxx

Update 22/11/16 - Darcy is now 13 years old

Hello everyone, I haven't written into here for a while now and a lot has changed. I'm now 13 and in year 9, I have a completely different group of friends who are very supportive and tomorrow it will be two years since my dad died!! It's very hard to cope even now but the pain eases as time passes by and I know that it's just something I'm going to learn to live with. Losing my dad has had a massive effect on me as I have been suffering with panic attacks and dizziness and my emotions are all over the place! These past 2-3 days I've just been crying out of the blue and I don't know why and then I realise it's my silent friend grief, he has jumped up on me... Mr grief you don't know who he is until you have had true pain in your life like losing a parent and he is horrible, never seen but is always about! I still think about where my dad is right now and what he is doing and I wish so much I could see him just one last time!!

I've had some horrible comments in the past such as 'you still get upset it was like ages ago' and these are the comments that bring you down but I get back up and hold my head high and all that is with the help of my bestfriend Emily! She is like my big sister and I love her so much she just puts herself in my shoes and thinks about how I would be feeling and this is the sort of friend I need... if you are like me you are very kind, caring, forgiving, gullible and sensitive! And people will take that advantage of that. My emotions are different at the moment I'm confused, angry, sad and guilty and these are all natural feelings but it feels wrong to have them!! I used to feel like I was the only person feeling like this but now I realise I'm not! I'm having a charity event in aid of the beechwood cancer care centre and my event is going to be named after my daddy! Its nearly Christmas and that's a hard time of year but I can get through it with all the help I have!!

Thankyou love Darcy xox

Update 21/08/17 - Darcy-darc is now 14 years old

Hi everyone it's Darcy. I thought I'd update you all as you haven't heard from me in a while, a lot has changed and I never thought I'd be where I am now... I've come so far since you last heard from me and I couldn't be happier with what I've achieved since my dad passed away!

I've made the most amazing and understanding new friends who I can always rely on. It's currently the summer holidays and when I go back to school I'm going into year 10 and my little sister is starting high school! I still miss my dad with all my heart and that will never change but I can honestly say that it gets easier, I still suffer from panic attacks and dizziness and I think that's because sometimes I get too upset about things as I am very sensitive.

A few months ago we got a new little addition to our family, we got a little puppy who is now 8 months old and she is called Harlow. Somehow having Harlow, things have been easier and I believe she is very therapeutic, she's absolutely gorgeous, she's a little shar-pei so she's very wrinkly and cute... I'm not friends with the people I used to be friends with and I think that is for the best. My current friends are very understanding and always listen to me and make me feel better!

It was my birthday two weeks ago and I got lots of lovely gifts but I wish my dad was here to celebrate my birthday and it was his birthday just 3 days after.. but I've got to remember he's in a better place.

I'm very proud of how far I've come since my dad passed away and I can now say I can help others just to let them know it gets better and they have someone to speak to.. Thankyou for listening, write again soon Love Darcy-Mae xoxo

Update from Darcy 21 November 2018

Hi everyone,
So I am doing quite well at the moment, it will be 4 years since my dad died on the 23rd November and it's a very hard time for all of us but I'm trying to stay positive as it's a big year for me with my GCSEs ahead. I am now 15 and I'm year 11 and my little sister Konnie is now 13 and in year 8, we both miss my dad very much however we know he'd want us to stay strong so that's what we are doing! And we always have to remember that he's out of pain now and in a better place and I know he will be looking over me. We lost my grandma 11 months ago which has been really hard on us and it was almost like reliving the time my dad passed away, but I know they are both up in heaven looking down on me and wishing me to do well in life and I will carry on making them proud.
Thanks guys.
Love Darcy xx

Page updated 21 August 2017