Han - 18 years old

Although I have been told I've become the rock of the family I feel myself becoming more anxious and worried about my mum.

My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer back at the end of January.
She had a mastectomy in the middle of February and 5 lymph nodes taken out, after they were tested it came back that 4 were cancerous. We found out today that breast cancer cells have spread to the liver, so as well as breast cancer she also has secondary liver cancer. They have also told us that they are unable to operate because of the size of the cancer cells on the liver and how many there are.

Although I have been told I've become the rock of the family I feel myself becoming more anxious and worried about my mum. It feels like we never have good news about her diagnosis. Because this is all such recent news I haven't really found an effective coping strategy and sometimes I feel bad for becoming upset and crying because I feel like my family need me to remain the rock. I find myself frequently having to go into a different room if I'm upset and crying into a pillow or taking a shower to cry. I honestly can't help but feel my mum is running on borrowed time which is awful but I can't stop thinking about how much time she has left.

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