Lillie - 14 years old

My nan was my everything. I looked up to my nan as my mum because she was such a loving person.

On the 2nd of april 2016 i lost my nan from cancer. Before she died she was in and out of hospital and i didn't really know what was happening. But as the days went on my nan got worse and now she only had a couple of days/hours left to live.

My nan was my everything. I looked up to my nan as my mum because she was such a loving person. I remember that the last time i see her was the time i got to hold her hand and tell her that she has been strong but not strong enough! From that day on I've never been able to stop myself but think about where she is.

I prefer talking to my friends than my family because they understand me more and my friends have gone through the same thing as me, like i have never lost someone that is so close to me. At school I've not been able to study a lot because all i think about is her beautiful face. Whenever i think about her i drop what I'm doing and i go all funny and then i just cry.

I am scared to go to the doctors to tell them what I'm feeling because i think i have depression and i don't know how to feel about that and i don't know how to treat it. I am so lonely sad and depressed about this situation and i hope i can get help.

Page updated 21 April 2016