DD, Aged 17

    When people would talk they didn't know what to say which was understandable.  more...


    Mimi - 15 years old

    I lost myself doing stupid things, angry and sad and depressed at everything. I ended up failing my classes, not caring about school, and getting into fights.  more...


    Chelsea - 14 years old

    I stuck my head round the door in the room mum was in, and she looked really ill. I couldn't understand what was happening - one minute my mum was fine and the next she was ill.  more...


    Clair - aged 14

    Something I wish is I could just have one more day with my dad! - to tell him how much I love him and how sorry I am for all the bad things I have said and done to him!  more...


    Nicole - 17 years old

    This time the doctors are unable to operate. He has already had 6 sessions of chemo and is having another 6 sessions. I cannot help feeling I may lose him.  more...


    Rirrif - 15 years old

    I have been staying with my dad because my mom doesn't want me around when she is sick, which is all the time. My dad works at night so I spend a lot of time alone since I'm not with my mom. I'm afraid she is going to die and I'll blame myself for not being there more. more...


    HT - 13 years old

    She has been so strong about this and is keen to put it all behind her.  more...

Lucy - 14 years old

I have nightmares basically every night, I´ve started self-harming because I don't know how to deal with it, I feel like I cant trust anyone and to be honest I just want to end my life, there´s not point anymore.

Just over a year ago my nana got diagnosed with lung cancer. It tore the family up, watching her go through pain with the treatment and stuff. It was a painful time in all our lives. Me and my nana were like best friends we were so close from the day I was born. Well after a while the cancer started to shrink and all was well. For 7 months or so.

Then we got told that the cancer had spread to her liver, and it couldn't be treated; that's when things got bad. 2 days before Christmas last year she had a bad turn, she couldn't talk or open her eyes she was in so much pain she was admitted to hospital. She was allowed out for the day on Christmas and we made it big and special, she was so happy. But then she decided she wanted to go home, she didn't have long left to live and she wanted to die at home surrounded by family, but we all had to watch her suffer, she was always in pain and it was scary watching your family member die.

On the 10th of January she passed away and that's when things got hard. I have nightmares basically every night, I’ve started self-harming because I don't know how to deal with it, I feel like I cant trust anyone and to be honest I just want to end my life, there’s not point anymore. Also me and my boyfriend are going through trouble. I get jealous when he mentions how close he is to other girls and im scared in case he goes off with them instead. I don't know how to handle it anymore, its all too much.


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