Scared, aged 13 - aunt having cancer

My aunt is now in a hospice and in a few weeks she is coming to our house. I am scared and I don't understand why it had to be her.

A few years ago, I can't remember exactly when my Aunt got cancer, she had a tumour in her leg. It was a real shock for the whole of the family and they took her to hospital. She had the tumour removed, had chemo and radiotherapy and everything was all clear. She was fine after that and it went back to normal.

Last year my mum noticed a scar on my aunts back. She asked what it was and she said she had an operation, because they found tumours in her lung. Then everything was ok. I dont know what happened then.

Near christmas 2004 my aunt had pain in her back and she went for a scan. They found tumours in her spine. She has bone cancer. And basically thats it. My mum cried when she found out. My aunt is now in a hospice and in a few weeks she is coming to our house. I am scared and I don't understand why it had to be her. My parents don't want to hide her death from us, they want us to know even my little sisters. Its so hard for us, and I hate it. I don't want to talk to my parents because they will get upset.

Can you imagine knowing that someone is going to live in your family members house, after they are gone. Having that person gone from your life at such a young age, knowing that she won't be here anymore, having christmas without her. Having friends who don't understand why you are upset all the time, not actually knowing what is going on. No? You can't. Try being me.

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