Tyler -- 12 years old and update at 16

It's all just building up inside. I want to let it go but I can't, I´m that type of person who just can't.

My mum has tonsil cancer and I have coped so far but now it's all just building up inside. I want to let it go but I can't, I’m that type of person who just can't.

I guess I'm partly a carer I've never really had a childhood, like I've never been Disney land Lego land digger, it was straight to adulthood really, helping around house 12 hours a day, dpi my mums feeding tube. I've just never enjoyed my childhood worst year ever !

Update from Tyler 5 September2014

My mum has tonsill cancer and i have just seen through my sisters text that my mum has 5 months to live, is that possible? I've been so down lately i dont know why, my mums wedding is tomorrow and still im down. I just dont want her to go she is my rock and im the sea, if she goes there wont be a rock to be my decor. I've posted on here before and it didnt help, thanks.

We're sorry that posting your story didn't help, but remember Tyler - and everyone else - that you can always get in touch with us in a personal message to discuss things that are on your mind. Warm wishes from Hilde - the riprap team   

Update from Tyler 21 January 2018

It’s been so long since I’ve been on here, Riprap helped me so much during the course of 2 years when my mother was ill with neck cancer which then spread across her whole body and took her away from us. I was only 13-14 at the time and my life was turned upside down, I lost all of my family, I lost my sister when she moved out and I lost my dad when he went down with severe depression which he is only starting to recover from now, it was such a rough ride having to live off pennies because my dad wasn’t in the able mind to get a job or fill out forms. It was the hardest time in my life and I’m sorta glad that I came through even after thinking of ending it all and going to be with my mum but I knew it would only affect others!

I read at the time so many times the line It will get better I promise, but it didn’t one bit and I still wouldn’t say my life is great and joyful now but I’m happy to be alive! My dad sleeps during the day and is awake at night due to schedule he can’t break from caring from my mum so it is hard as it’s hard to have people over or socialise as it’s embarrassing. I just wish I lived a normal life with my mum, sister and dad again but I know that isn’t going to happen so I’ve just gotta ride it out until I’m old enough to start to properly live my life and do the things I want and most importantly make my mum proud of me!

 

Page updated 21 January 2018